Monday, August 29, 2005
you are vertically challenged. so shut up.
sow discord for all u want. but bloody hell fuck off. this is between me and him. <s>it's none of ur fucking business.
LONG TIME NO UPDATE!
18 aug: mingjie's bdae went for a feast at NYDC.
26 aug: went to eat after school. went to meet kevin singchang jonas after tt. they play soccer. stinks. den went to spook show at suntec. nice. saw marcus andrew thow xin reuben hongyi daniel. did i miss out anybody? like somebody will care. den went to kallang with the 3 pple to eat. den after tt went ecp. walked like a super long dist. loads of tings happen. the stars are so pretty at nite. looking at the waves hitting against the breakwater. so much emotions so much thoughts yet all i can do is put on a smile and pretend that i am happy.
27 aug: went to anger's bdae. stayed over. had fun gossiping. din really slp. gosh. tired. but nice. so much new news. HAHAHA
28 aug: slept alot. watch tv. cried watching homerun and that hui jia show. really hit me. guess tt's the only way i can cry without people asking why am i crying. to channel my sadness into tears and cry with the story of the show.
im tired of putting up a pretence.
26 aug: went to eat after school. went to meet kevin singchang jonas after tt. they play soccer. stinks. den went to spook show at suntec. nice. saw marcus andrew thow xin reuben hongyi daniel. did i miss out anybody? like somebody will care. den went to kallang with the 3 pple to eat. den after tt went ecp. walked like a super long dist. loads of tings happen. the stars are so pretty at nite. looking at the waves hitting against the breakwater. so much emotions so much thoughts yet all i can do is put on a smile and pretend that i am happy.
27 aug: went to anger's bdae. stayed over. had fun gossiping. din really slp. gosh. tired. but nice. so much new news. HAHAHA
28 aug: slept alot. watch tv. cried watching homerun and that hui jia show. really hit me. guess tt's the only way i can cry without people asking why am i crying. to channel my sadness into tears and cry with the story of the show.
im tired of putting up a pretence.
-go away.all of you-
i aint a good friend of anybody. ANYBODY.
i aint a good lover of yours.
im just an asshole which suffers alot of rejection.
you have no right to say me.
you have no right to speak to me in that tone,
making it sound as if everything's my fault.
were you there when i needed you,
you in this case does not only refer to one person.
first you don't care about me.
there are others in your life.
fine. fair. since i have others in mine.
den you make me feel unwanted.
and just left me to hang on to you.
but no. i am not going to do it.
so i let you go.
now. you are saying i dont care about your life.
i dont care about you.
you blame me for not being there when you needed someone to talk to.
you blame me for going out with your friends and not bothering about you.
i am not going to say sorry.
it's going to be useless.
they are my friends too.
and i have my basic rights to go out with who i want to.
and you cannot stop me.
if i didn't stop you. den u fucking dont come and stop me.
i can guarantee you i am not feeling good.
but what is there that i can do?
nothing.
i dont want to be there alone.
to face all the problems between us alone.
so just leave me alone? FAIR?
so many problems.
yet so little people i can talk to.
maybe certain stuff can only be spoke to you.
but now.
i cannot tell it to you anymore.
you just do not understand dont u.
all of you. just go away.
maybe im insensitive.
you you you.
so many of you.
you all do not understand.
if you want to blame me for everything.
GO AHEAD.
i aint a good lover of yours.
im just an asshole which suffers alot of rejection.
you have no right to say me.
you have no right to speak to me in that tone,
making it sound as if everything's my fault.
were you there when i needed you,
you in this case does not only refer to one person.
first you don't care about me.
there are others in your life.
fine. fair. since i have others in mine.
den you make me feel unwanted.
and just left me to hang on to you.
but no. i am not going to do it.
so i let you go.
now. you are saying i dont care about your life.
i dont care about you.
you blame me for not being there when you needed someone to talk to.
you blame me for going out with your friends and not bothering about you.
i am not going to say sorry.
it's going to be useless.
they are my friends too.
and i have my basic rights to go out with who i want to.
and you cannot stop me.
if i didn't stop you. den u fucking dont come and stop me.
i can guarantee you i am not feeling good.
but what is there that i can do?
nothing.
i dont want to be there alone.
to face all the problems between us alone.
so just leave me alone? FAIR?
so many problems.
yet so little people i can talk to.
maybe certain stuff can only be spoke to you.
but now.
i cannot tell it to you anymore.
you just do not understand dont u.
all of you. just go away.
maybe im insensitive.
you you you.
so many of you.
you all do not understand.
if you want to blame me for everything.
GO AHEAD.
Sunday, August 14, 2005
OH.
so long never update. like 13 days?
let's try to recall big big events.
1st aug? cannot remember
2nd aug? also cannot remember
3rd aug? cannot recall
4th aug? ARH finally. BERNICE's BIRTHDAY! we ate sakae.
5th aug? dunnno.
6th aug? dunnoo.
7th aug? really dunno.
8th aug? hmm went school in red and white. guides squad did well. took alot of pictures? had fun. went to watch charlie and the chocolate factory. cute but boring show. but very cool also. met up wif wanru xinwen keith daniel. went to marina south to see daniel's dad's performance. realised ive been to his church and tt i haf a vcd of his father's show! hahaha. oh wells. den was late and walking very long distances. went for countdown. went to esplanade to see fireworks at 12 am. got screamed at. day ended badly. kena followed by ahbengs at tp. wadeva la. dun feel liek talking about it. school celebration was quite funny. oh ya wanru spat at daniel. ACCIDENTALLY. and loads of other stuff happened. btu i dun feel liek talking about it anymore.
9th aug? went out to study den went to hospital wif yq to see parade and shooting star went home.
10 aug? slacked. national day ma.
11 aug? went out for dinner wif xinwen wanru gavin daniel.
12 aug? exp chi take back results. scary sia. see their face. very bad. sighs. i felt sad for them nearly cry. only 53% distinction. maris stella 18% only. whole singapore very bad. aiyo. den i had englihs oral. sucked. heck. i screwed it up. fuck it. wadeva.
13 aug? completed daniel's belated bdae present. donno wad he'll tink about it. but suan le la.
my life is so whatever now.
and im so sad.
oh wells.
prelims in 16 days time.
but.
i haven started revision.
screw it.
i hate my life.
fuck.
let's try to recall big big events.
1st aug? cannot remember
2nd aug? also cannot remember
3rd aug? cannot recall
4th aug? ARH finally. BERNICE's BIRTHDAY! we ate sakae.
5th aug? dunnno.
6th aug? dunnoo.
7th aug? really dunno.
8th aug? hmm went school in red and white. guides squad did well. took alot of pictures? had fun. went to watch charlie and the chocolate factory. cute but boring show. but very cool also. met up wif wanru xinwen keith daniel. went to marina south to see daniel's dad's performance. realised ive been to his church and tt i haf a vcd of his father's show! hahaha. oh wells. den was late and walking very long distances. went for countdown. went to esplanade to see fireworks at 12 am. got screamed at. day ended badly. kena followed by ahbengs at tp. wadeva la. dun feel liek talking about it. school celebration was quite funny. oh ya wanru spat at daniel. ACCIDENTALLY. and loads of other stuff happened. btu i dun feel liek talking about it anymore.
9th aug? went out to study den went to hospital wif yq to see parade and shooting star went home.
10 aug? slacked. national day ma.
11 aug? went out for dinner wif xinwen wanru gavin daniel.
12 aug? exp chi take back results. scary sia. see their face. very bad. sighs. i felt sad for them nearly cry. only 53% distinction. maris stella 18% only. whole singapore very bad. aiyo. den i had englihs oral. sucked. heck. i screwed it up. fuck it. wadeva.
13 aug? completed daniel's belated bdae present. donno wad he'll tink about it. but suan le la.
my life is so whatever now.
and im so sad.
oh wells.
prelims in 16 days time.
but.
i haven started revision.
screw it.
i hate my life.
fuck.
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